People who have never had to struggle with their weight don’t
entirely understand that there are things that happen in people’s daily routines
that ‘fluffy people’ (my favorite term for people fighting the battle of the
bulge) can’t do or struggle with doing. Noticing and consciously recognizing these
changes, as minute as they may be, is an integral part of embracing and celebrating
maintenance.
For example, when I go to the doctor’s office these days I
find my own small jolt of self-confidence in the visit. No, I am not referring to
seeing the number on the scale being in a range I never thought it would be,
and I also am not referring to my doctor saying that I am in a perfectly
healthy BMI (body max index) range for my height. These are definitely wonderful feats and trust
me, I celebrate them often! However, I am referring to the self-confidence I
attain from getting my blood pressure taken! Again, I am not referring to the
medical results of the doctor squeezing my arm so tight that it feels as though
it may just POP off my shoulder! Instead, I am speaking to the small victory
that I no longer need the doctor to try
to fit the “normal” person’s blood pressure cuff onto my arm out of
politeness then say, “Oh, let me just try one a bit bigger…” A BIT BIGGER?
Really? I wonder which chip gets bequeathed the honor of being the defining one to send me from a ‘normal’ cuff to the “bit bigger” cuff-the FLUFFY person’s cuff?!?
These small, every day, experiences stay with you long after
the weight is gone-and then some…
Now, I go into the doctor’s office and sometimes the “normal” cuff is too BIG and I need the small one! In fact, it is the feeling of having the
doctor put the normal cuff around my arm recently that made me decide I HAD to
write this blog! Little incidents like these are a DAILY occurrence for someone
who is trying to maintain their weight and these occurrences should be valued
and celebrated. You SHOULD make a mountain out of these small mole hills! These
mole hills should be given recognition in a new positive light because if they
aren’t; the old memories will remain sedentary in the negative shadows in your mind.
Another example is that I used to own tons of earrings. The reason I had an addiction to earrings is
because they were, as I always joked, “one size fits all!” (which is a term
that people who struggle with their weight know is the biggest lie since Bill
Clinton said he ‘did not have relations
with that woman’). Now, when I
borrow a friend’s bracelet or ring it is a mole hill that I consider a
mountain! To go from being anxious to even try on a bracelet around my friends
because I knew it wouldn’t fit-to trying any and all jewelry on is something I
am proud to celebrate!
Weight loss and maintenance is not easy, and no one ever
said it would be. Whether it is wearing jewelry, having a smaller blood pressure ‘cuff of
death’ at the doctor’s, buying a size smaller shoe (yes, your feet lose weight
too!), or simply being able to see your toes again while standing straight
up-these are milestones that MUST be celebrated (and no, do NOT celebrate them
by eating a piece of cake haha!). Every time I experience a little flash back to the
chubby days and see how my life has changed today I just take a moment to bask
in it. I think about where I’ve come from and how hard I worked for it; and I
will be damned if I don’t take a second to reflect upon my accomplishments! But please note, I reflect these accomplishments many times internally-I’m
not sure people would entirely comprehend my love/hate relationship with a
blood pressure cuff while sitting in an emotionally sterile doctor’s office! ;)
Remember, celebrate we will-because life is short but sweet
for certain…
Until next time, trying to keep the bulge at bay!
My mole hill?
ReplyDeleteWhen I fold my hands I can feel my knuckles. Sounds silly but I like that. I Lost 92 lbs 2 years ago and am working at keeping it off every single day.
Love your posts !
Rachel... you are stunning and inspiring. my goodness you are a tremendous person. (love, kirstie)
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